Chapter Ten - Black Bliss

The headlines were truthful.  They said that the Judge had been murdered in his hotel room, naked.  They didn't mention our war proclamation yet.  We traveled along quickly; in a couple of days we had traveled through a checkpoint.  Raven said we were going to a new capital to hide until Basil gave us the okay.  When we arrived in the city, only days after the murder, we received a letter from Basil.

"What does it say?" I asked.  I bit my bottom lip.

"The Judges have gotten the letter and the Seventh City is in a state of panic.  Basil's troops are marching towards Seventh City and I'm to join them." Raven said.

I wanted to cry.  I wanted to scream.  This is not what was supposed to happen.  Raven isn't getting away from me.  But... "Don't go," I said, keeping in my tears.

"I have to."  Raven was solemn and understanding.

"You can't...die.  What am I going to do without you?  While you're fighting?  Where will I go?" I felt tears.

"I..."

"I'm coming with you."

"That's a 'hell no.'"

"Either you're not going, or you're letting me come with you." I said firmly as the tears attempted to break through.

"I have to.  You can stay with Basil until the war is over."

"And how long is that going to take?  Years?" I cried.

"Listen...I love you...Claire." Raven said gently.

This hit me like a bag of bricks.  I tried to stay casual.  "I know.  Ditto."  I laughed to keep from crying.

"Basil had more instructions in the letter.  We're to meet a man who is leading the resistance here."  Raven suddenly turned business-like.  "He's staying down the road from here."  We went to the place he was staying.  This city was extremely overpopulated before the cataclysm.  There's also a huge statue here.  It fell during the cataclysm, face down into the ground.  The city has built around it, however.  As I would soon learn, this city is characteristically shady.

We arrived where the informant was staying.  We had to pay a toll to enter.  I was shocked as I did so.  "Raven!  Is this a...brothel?"

"It seems like it." Raven said nonchalantly.  "Mind if I stay here after our business is done?"  Then he laughed. It was good to see his lightheartedness back, although that isn't something to joke about.  "He's upstairs."  We ascended some stairs and met him at the top.  (At least he was clothed.)

"So we're to head out towards Seventh City?  About time."  He took a swig of a drink I could only assume was alcoholic.  "We'll ready and out by the moonrise."

At this point we exited.  "That was faster than expected."  I said.  "Mm" was my reply.  Raven said we should head for the hotel.  By the time we arrived, it was already dark and the resistance was already heading out.  We laid in our beds preparing to sleep.  I thought about how he was leaving for the war...  This could be the last time...

I went over to his bed and got on top of him.  Slowly, silently, I started to unbutton his shirt.  His breathing slowed to a calm beat and he said "yes" sublimely.  His shirt came off and I felt the warmth of his bare muscles touch me.  It gave me a grim reminder of the man I had murdered, but I quickly shook it off.

I lowered down his body and started to slide off his pants.  When they were off, he was completely in his manhood.  Then it was his turn.  As he took off my shirt, I slid into a state I had never felt before and the world faded into a black bliss.

Chapter Nine - Silence, Noise, and Daze

Quite soon we arrived in Seventh City.  It was grand and huge and everything that was expected.  It felt tropical with a bit of old world influences.  I didn't have time to take in the scenery, I had a mission to complete.  We had to deliver the letter and kill a Judge.  Oh joy.  "It's actually going to be pretty easy to get my old man," Raven said.  "He should be in the city.  I just need to find out where he's staying and we can kill him before their meeting.  I could go in on him, talk him up, and then you kill him?"

I didn't like that idea.  "You can't kill him?"  Raven's answer was that he couldn't.  He was too fond of him, apparently.  "Well, alright."  The idea of killing someone didn't sit well with me.  "You're sure you won't do it for me?"  I looked at Raven.

"...Alright," he said.  I was proud of Raven.  It must take a lot of guts to kill your former boss.  As Raven explained to me, he was more like his father than his boss.  Raven departed to find out where his Judge was staying, while I was to turn in our letter to the Judges' box so it could be reviewed in a few days.  I went where Raven instructed me to, and I found a small office.  It was similar to the post offices I had seen in other cities.  Your mail here can go to anywhere in the empire.

This one had an extra function: you could give items to the Judges for review.  Not many people had the guts to do it, and even though I was starting a war by doing it, I dropped it into the box.  "Thank you for your concerns about our nation!" the postmaster called as I exited.  I waited outside of the office for Raven.  He reappeared and laid out our plan after a while.

He had located the Judge's position.  We were to meet with the Judge and silently kill him, and then run.  Fast.  If we didn't, we would surely both be executed, courtesy of the Judges.  Raven said we would go by nightfall.  He had rented us a room in a nearby hotel.  "I suggest you rest.  It's going to be a trying few days."

So that's what I did.  I went to the hotel and slept.  I don't think Raven did.  Perhaps he was preparing his mind for what lay ahead.  At one point, I heard tears.  Maybe I was dreaming, but Raven certainly didn't seem happy about something.  At night, we headed out to a large building where the Judge was staying.  We entered and climbed up many flights of stairs.  Raven was silent.

We reached the room with the Judge in it.  Raven knocked.  "Who is it?" a voice called out.  My heart leaped in my chest and I quit breathing.  What are we doing?  I don't want to be an assassin...

"It's Raven.  I brought a friend too.  We'd like to see you." Raven called out.

"Alright, come on in.  I was just getting ready to sleep.  This is a pleasant surprise." the Judge said.  I heard a shower running in the distance.  A squeak and it stopped.  Then footsteps came over to the door.  "What are you waiting for?  Get in here!"  Raven opened the door and I almost screamed.  The man was stark naked!

"Hello, father," Raven said.  The Judge walked over and hugged Raven.

"Oh, son!  It's been so long!" the man whispered something to Raven, who nodded.  "Come in and sit by the fireplace!"  We did so.  The fire was very warm.  (I guess it has to be when you wear no clothes.)  The man wasn't very old.  I expected he was about forty.  He was old enough to be Raven's father, at least.  He had a whiskery face that had a kind aspect to it.  He looked like an okay person if you only looked at his face, but his dark agenda as a Judge stood him out from the nice crowd (not to mention how freely he lets it all hang out...).

They went into the usual jabber, I suppose.  "So Dad, have you gotten any women lately?"

"I'm actually expecting one, right now.  I suppose you wonder why I'm not covered up in the slightest." the man said jovially.

"I'm not the least bit concerned about that, father.  I'm used to it." Raven said, smiling.  In a pause he whispered to me: "I can't do this.  The dagger is hidden in my back pants pocket.  Do it soon."

I gulped, but it had to be done.  I decided to make myself known in the conversation.  I grabbed the dagger slowly so as to not arouse suspicion and hid it in my pocket.  Then I spoke.  "Excuse me, I have to use the restroom."

"This building isn't connected to the sewers, so you can't really."  the Judge said.

"But that's not why I'm going to the bathroom."  He gave me a look that said "oh," and I stood up and walked into the bathroom, shutting the door.  I took a deep breath and steadied myself.  I put my hand on the dagger and waited a minute or two.  Afterwards, I exited.  The bathroom was positioned behind the Judge so that his back was to me.  Raven was across from him, facing me.  Both of them glanced my way.

"Welcome back," the Judge said casually and turned back to Raven to continue his conversation.  His bare back stared at me and I gulped.  It was now or never.  I took out the dagger and slowly walked toward him.  His body sat, leaning forward, and moving a bit as he talked to Raven.  I was going to kill a man, Raven's dad.  I was prepared.  I had reached the point where I was a foot or two behind him now.  I raised the dagger and plunged.

I shut my eyes upon impact.  My ears rang and I couldn't hear anything.  I felt Raven grab me and we exited the scene.  I was in a daze.  Raven had the dagger and slipped it into his pocket.  We ran continuously until we reached the carriage.  We galloped into the night with my conscience punctured.  Raven was crying silently.  We had done it, though.  We had started a war.  I think I fell into a sleep.

Chapter Eight - Wavering Loyalties

I woke up to a brisk morning breakfast and soon we were in the carriage, prepared to leave for the Seventh City.  We said a few words of farewell to Basil. (I noticed Raven seemed more submissive than usual today.)  Finally, we headed out.  The journey was long and tiring.  The travel was quite boring when you were awake.  There was nothing to look at but wasteland, and of course Raven wouldn't talk to me.

I noticed the food was dwindling down and so did Raven.  We eventually stopped in a checkpoint town between the border of two sectors and there we replenished our supplies.  Raven was absent for a period of time during this pitstop - What could he have been doing?

Eventually he saddled up and left through the gate opposite the one we had entered through.  We were now in a new sector, but somehow I knew it wasn't the Seventh Sector yet.  The carriage continued on at a monotonous pace.  We only stopped to use the restroom.  (Which most of the time was for Raven.  He pees a lot...not that I watch him or anything.  I, on the other hand, go a little more discreetly and hidden.)

We had traveled for weeks.  When we finally reached the next checkpoint, I had lost a lot of weight.  We had had to ration our food, because I had under-judged the amount we would need.  Raven helped me shop this time, but he still was gone most of the time.  When he finally came back I asked where he had been.  "Why do you keep wandering off at these stops?"

"No reason, really.  A few drinks here and there, a few meetings with acquaintances, the time adds up quickly."  For some reason, I accepted this.  We loaded back up onto our cart and headed into the next sector.  I asked Raven if we were in the Seventh yet, but he said no.  "However, that's the next one we will arrive at."

I muttled through every boring hour.  Time seemed to pass fast.  One evening, dusk was upon me.  I wasn't planning to go to sleep any time soon.  I had just napped during the daytime.  I sat there calmly...

That's when Raven kicked the horse.  I'm not sure if that's what happened.  I didn't see it, but due to its reaction, that's definitely what happened.  I fell off onto the ground.  Raven jumped off of the carriage right before it toppled over.  Raven was a few yards away from me, and he was pointing a pistol at me.  My eyes ignited with fear.  "Where did you get that?!" I screamed through the tears.  Raven had betrayed me.

"You had wondered where I was during the checkpoints.  Now...you know."  Raven said as he prepared to fire.  "Any words?"

"Why?"  The tears were soaking in through the cuts now, along with the dirt.

"I'll admit it.  I'm a double agent.  I work for the Judge that mans the smallest sector." he said, almost arrogantly.

I cried and awaited the inevitable.  I heard sounds.  He was going to shoot...  "Raven.  It's me, Claire..."

My eyes closed, I hear two things hit the dirt.  First a small, quickly followed by a large.  Then came the tears and I kept my eyes closed.  "I'm so..." Raven said through muffled sobs.  "I can't do this..."

I refused to open my eyes.  His sobs didn't yet convince me.  The second I came to him, I would be dead.  "Please...Claire."  A sob.  "Kill me..."  He pitched the abominable device towards me.

"If I kill you, I don't survive.  So you must stay alive...for me.  I will be happy for you when you're not.  I will share the pain when you are hurting."  The words rang true for Raven, whose weeping sounded painful.

He reached towards me.  "Claire...Claire."  I held the gun, just in case.  I had a query: "Whose side are you going to stay on?  There's only one available.  Pick."

"I think...you know."  The truth was, I didn't.  But I assumed this meant Basil.

"I will go with you...As long as the Judge that you work for is the one we kill."

We headed into the night.

Chapter Seven - The Plan

I woke up in the daylight.  We had made it to Basil's house, which was situated on a hill at one end of a town that seemed to be devoid of life.  I asked Raven where everyone was.  "They're underground, preparing."  I didn't know what this meant at the time, but I soon would.  I gazed up at the beautiful green hill that was host to Basil's house at the top.  Flowers dotted the lush hillside.  I took in the beautiful scenery as we traveled up the hill towards Basil's house.

Then I saw her house.  It looked different from her past two houses.  While the first one conformed to the design of the other houses in the little village, and the second one was a cottage hidden in a forest, the third was surprisingly different.  It looked like a mansion, albeit a modest and old-timey one.  However, it fell into the design of the other buildings in the tiny town while remaining unique and solitary.

When we entered, I knew this was the real Basil.  She was immediately ready for action.  She explained to me that the Basil that we had seen in the forest was a faux copy of the original, made using the advanced technology Basil had access to.  It was used as bait to test and see if the campaign was burning down everything, or just areas with human life.

Her experiment also featured a second forest fairly close to the one her copy had occupied, while still the same size.  Only the inhabited one was burned down.  The Judges weren't burning down the environment, but just the dwellings outside of the capitals.  This is what was believed before, but the Judges' intentions are becoming foggier every day, according to Basil.  Raven was in on her plan the entire time.

It was also explained who she really was.  After the village had been burned, Basil had moved to a town that refused to burn.  She set up post and started preparing for a rebellion against the Judges, which she hoped would turn into an all-out war until the Judges had been disposed of.  According to her, she had more numbers than the Judges would be able to scrape together.  The Judges kept a small army, but not enough to protect themselves from a war.  Raven and I's job was to do two things:  First, we would head to Seventh City, the capital of the capitals, and send in a letter to the Judges.  The Judges were forced to go through all letters sent in by the citizens during the meetings, but there never were very many from what I've heard.

The letter would be a proclamation of war.  This would give both sides ample time to get as many warriors as possible.  Basil, of course, gets the advantage, as she has been gathering forces, and will continue to do so until the Judges' army begins the war officially.  Secondly, we were taxed with doing the impossible: Basil said that to make the war proclamation real, we had to kill one of the Judges.  She said any would do, so long as we don't kill the Judge of Seventh City.  That would be overdoing it.  It would happen in time however, she assured us.  Or me, rather.  Raven certainly knew all of this already.

Basil then rolled out a map of the seven sectors with their capital's past names labeled.  These names were no longer used except to identify the capitals.  Apart from the Seventh City, each city (nor sector) had any official titles, except for those given to them in the far past.  Hundreds, thousands of years back then, a large and devastating event had caused the world to fall into ruin, pushing landmasses previously far apart back together again and taking away technologies and lives.

Essentially, the entire world had been decimated.  Before the cataclysmic event, there had been hundreds of billions of people, but afterward, the number had dwindled to the low millions or even into the thousands as the world scrambled to rebuild.

What they made were tiny villages where major cities had been.  But these cities grew.  And grew.  Government was eventually put into place.  It was welcome at first, but soon enough, it was questioned though.  But not aloud.  That would earn you a hanging.  Consequently, citizens moved out of the cities and created settlements for themselves.  The government wasn't going to extremes at that point, however.

Time passed, and the government created the Judges.  More time passed, and the Judges created the campaign, although they eased towards it, after several events that were a bad influence to the welfare of society.  Basil said she often wondered what happened to the few lost souls on the small landmasses that hadn't joined together.  Where were they now?  Lost in the ocean?

Day passed into night and Basil began to give us ample supplies to make the long journey from her current sector to the Seventh City.  We slept, although Raven kept a silence that unnerved me.  I thought back to the times in the past when he had gotten very close to me.  His wonderful dreams of grandeur, and his delightful disposition.  It was all gone now.

In his sleep, I heard him mutter a word.  My name.  I smiled, my heart warmed.  "Claire.."

Chapter Six - Feeling Fragile

Tired.  That's all I remember.  I lied in Raven's arms for days.  Weeks.  I couldn't get up.  Weak.  That's the word for it.  The hospital hadn't cured me.  I was constantly coughing up blood.  It was an awful existence.  I couldn't fall asleep.  I don't remember why not.  There must have been something important my mind had created for me to stay up for.

But I couldn't.  All I could possibly do was be alive, lying on Raven.  And the rain.  I almost forgot about it.  It rained all day.  It was a miserable kind of rain that would not wash the pain away, but push it back into your body.  I writhed.  How much could I take?  Raven never moved or spoke.  He just sat there as I laid there.  He made me feel fragile.  Fragile is a delicate term, but almost a powerful and miserable one.  I felt like I was boxed in and couldn't move.

Or maybe I was paralyzed.  That was a better explanation.  But I wasn't.  Why was this happening?  Despair is all I could feel.  I wanted to die.  Or scream.  Or make someone else feel the pain along with me.  They deserved it.  This world is messed up.  I made a wish that everyone would die.  Why should I be the only one to die a slow death.  Certainly that is what this was...

I fell.  I don't remember what point this was, but I was bleeding and writhing in black dirt, alone.  I screamed.     The pain was immense.  I heard the clashing and banging of metal.  We had been attacked.  The horse was really scaring me.  It was running around everywhere.  Its screams frightened me.  I didn't want to die by getting trampled to death.

I screamed as the horse ran inches away from me.  I looked up and saw Raven and a man dueling.  The other man was bloody.  The next minutes went swiftly as Raven killed the man.  I was shocked.  I didn't know Raven was so... prepared for murder.  He picked me up without a word.  I tried to mouth "it hurts," but I don't think he noticed.  Even if he did, he didn't care.  Blood was on his hands now, and he wanted to visit Basil to wash it off.

I noticed I had woken up.  When I fell asleep is a mystery.  I had the strength to talk.  "Raven..."

"Hm?" he gruffly replied.

"How could you kill somebody?  Do you regret it?" I inquired weakly.

"What's done is done.  These "regrets" will eat you alive if you decide to keep them as pets."

I wanted to be happy.  Why can one not find happiness?  My life is miserable.  "Raven...Are you happy?"

He cleared his throat and his faced showed an expression I wouldn't expect from him.  "Yes.  I am happy.  I will be happy for you when you're not.  You have to promise to do that for me as well, correct?"

I giggled.  This was stupid.  I didn't have any time to think before I realized I was asleep.